Sunday, June 22, 2008

pre-transfer jitters

I'm bouncy tonight. I don't know why I'm so nervous for tomorrow's transfer. I know that it will be the easiest part of the whole thing, physically. I guess I'm anxious about what will come next. After tomorrow, we don't have any more blood tests or ultrasounds or daily calls from the clinic. It's likely we won't hear a peep from them until our beta in two weeks. Up until now, I've never had to look farther than a couple of days into the future to see our next step. After tomorrow, we're on our own for a while. Also, the next chute/ladder we will hit will be the big one. There won't be any waiting a couple more days or adjusting a dosage to improve the situation. If the outcome is not good, it'll just be a BFN. Game over.

Yikes.

I'm a little nervous about what shape the embies will be in tomorrow. Everything has rocked so far and I know it's okay to be optimistic. I also know that days 3-5 are tougher than days 1-3 and there's a good chance we may have lost some since our last update. I'm just hoping we have two good blasts to transfer and a couple more to freeze. Fingers are tightly crossed.

Thanks so much to everyone who has commented and emailed. I'm trying to do the same in return but I still feel so lousy! The mere thought of food made me nauseated today. I'm doing a good job of staying hydrated and rested, and I still don't have any of the big scary OHSS symptoms, but things definitely aren't quite right.

I'll post tomorrow to let you know how the transfer goes. Thanks again for all of your support and positive thoughts!

8 comments:

bleu said...

I shall be lighting a candle for you tomorrow K.

Much loce.

bleu said...

lol that was supposed to read

MUCH LOVE

Luisa said...

K, I'll have all my appendages tightly crossed for your transfer tomorrow. best wishes for a stress free transfer.

veeandjay said...

Sorry you're feeling lousy. Hope the transfer goes smoothly and you start to feel better soon.

Meegs said...

Good luck sweetie... everything that can be crossed, is crossed for you!! Hopefully everything will go perfectly.

xoxo

Inlocoparentis said...

I've been putting a lot of prayers into the magic hat for you - seems like they are working! :)

Travelher and Pufferfish said...

Wishing for an excellent transfer for you. Hope you get to feeling better very soon!

ec371 said...

Thinking about you and wishing you the very best! I cant wait to hear how it went.