Sunday, October 16, 2011

sick as a dog

A switch flipped on Friday (6 weeks exactly) and since then, I have been insatiably hungry ALL THE TIME. The problem is that I'm also still queasy and turned off by the idea of food; a bad combination. I drug myself to the store on Saturday and stocked up on a bunch of high-protein, easy-to-prepare foods and I've been trying to eat as much as possible since then. The problem is I'm also ridiculously exhausted, to the point I feel weak from head to toe, and that doesn't help my motivation any. I'm on about a 2-3 hour cycle: Eat something, lay down to rest and end up falling asleep, wake up feeling like I'll die if I don't eat right that very second, but also feeling too weak to get up off the couch and walk the 15 feet to the kitchen where the food is. So, I lay there for a while psyching myself up, and finally roll off the couch to grab a bunch of different snacks, none of which sound or taste good to me. I eat them in rapid succession, then lay back down waiting for the queasiness to subside, and the cycle continues.

Did I mention M and E are out of town? They left Friday afternoon and will be back on Tuesday. I was looking forward to a weekend of lounging around without feeling guilty for slacking off on my parental responsibilities, but as it's turned out, I've been too sick to enjoy a minute of it. It's crappy being home alone when you feel this terrible, and I really miss my people. I feel like a hug from E would go a long way in making all of this more tolerable.

I had things I wanted to accomplish this weekend, too. (Ha! Hahahahahahahahaha!) I was going to make E's Halloween costume. (I managed to cut out the pattern. Oh, and I washed the fabric. It's been sitting in the dryer for the last 36 hours.) I was also going to prepare the 3-hour lecture I'm supposed to give for the first time on Tuesday night. (Still haven't even glanced at it.) I'm off work tomorrow so there's still time, but I'm not feeling optimistic that tomorrow will be any better.

After my second beta, I felt pretty sure we were out of twin territory. Now, I don't know what to think. I know for sure that I never, never felt this awful when I was pregnant with E. My first ultrasound was supposed to be tomorrow but we pushed it to Wednesday when M will be back in town. I do have acupuncture tomorrow morning, which I'm really looking forward to. Hopefully she can get things flowing in a better direction for me.

7 comments:

Allison said...

Hope you feel better soon.

jessie said...

I felt way worse this time around too. Ugh! So sorry.

motherwilling said...

Sorry you're not feeling well and getting to enjoy your alone time! I've definitely heard that it can be worth with 2nd+ pregnancies. Can't wait to hear about the ultrasound and I hope the acupuncture helps!

anofferingoflove said...

hope you are feeling better.

i'll be on the edge of my seat wednesday waiting for the news. fwiw, im still voting twins ;)

Bionic Baby Mama said...

the exhausted hungry was so much harder than i expected. i had to get up and eat an extra meal in the middle of every single night, and i was SO TIRED. eating never seemed so unfair. ricotta cheese (on toast or just a spoon, with salt and pepper or honey or jam) was my savior.

still veeeery curious about the number....

Dreams and False Alarms said...

perhaps it's a girl? My cousin had a boy first and had manageable first trimester symptoms, but with her second, a girl, she swears she peed on the stick, saw it was positive, and then laid on the floor for the next 8+ months!

tbean said...

Very much reminding me, again, of my early days. Reading this brought back memories of being on the couch, too sick/nauseous to even pad ten feet into the kitchen and fix myself another snack.

Thinking of you and your u/s today and waiting for the update and great news!