Wednesday, October 19, 2011

how very predictable

Well, it's ultrasound day so you know what that means: The stone cold fear has set in. I still feel like complete crap which offers some reassurance, but it doesn't mean there will be a heartbeat.

Bonus: E came back from his trip with a fever which is currently on day 3, so I'm home with him instead of working the half day I'd planned on. Keeping a toddler entertained is way more involved than my regular day job so there's a lot of sitting down to catch my breath and stop my stomach from flip-flopping between the train play and puzzles and the books. I think we're going to venture out to a clinic to make sure his ears are clear. The last time he had a double ear infection, we let it go for over a week because he never gave a single indication of ear pain and it just seemed like he had a cold. Imagine our guilt when we finally got in with his pediatrician and she told us one ear was completely blocked and the other wasn't far behind. She was very surprised he hadn't been crying or pulling on his ears or anything, but said some kids just don't express symptoms like that. It took us three different antibiotics and more than a month to clear them up. So, yeah, trying to learn from past mistakes and get him checked sooner this time.

This also means he has to go to the ultrasound with us, which adds to my nervousness. If it doesn't go well and I get upset, I don't really want him to be around for that. But it is what it is and all we can do is hope for the best.

Three and a half hours and counting...

11 comments:

J and DZ said...

Good luck! I'm sure everything will go well with your scan.

Laurie said...

On the edge of my seat waiting for your update!

Trinity said...

Sending some peace your way! Hoping, hoping, hoping all is good for you guys! (And hoping E's ears are free and clear!)

Emily said...

Hope E feels better soon and praying for good news!

Mrs BabyDream said...

Best of luck!!

loveandchaosreign said...

Ugh. It's been one long month of sick in our house. I feel your pain.

Yay for ultrasound day!!!!!!!!! Can't wait for the update!

anofferingoflove said...

eeeee! im so excited for today's update - i just *know* there will be good news! :)

(i know how you are feeling though - i was sick to my stomach before my first ultrasound with bird. ugh..)

hope E feels better.

tireegal68 said...

Thinking of you, m'dear! If my calculations are correct you are somewhere in the vicinity of the scan as we speak!
Sending happy peaceful relaxed thoughts to you and hoping all is well with baby bean.
And hoping that E. gets a good report from the doctor too!

Sugar said...

I'm sure you've been to the doctor already so here's to hopefully a calm, positive, happy afternoon! Hope E feels better soon too!

tireegal68 said...

Any news? Sending big love:)

anofferingoflove said...

im developing a callus on my "refresh" finger. just sayin'...